Thursday, May 6, 2010

what I gave myself for my birthday? two minutes.

Today is the 30th anniversary of my debut here into mortality!
Yes, I say 30 LOUD AND PROUD! I am excited about this new chapter in my life. I've felt 30 for a while now...may as well have the badge of honor to go along with it!
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A little update on the mass-effort to lost a few L-B's: after I fell off the wagon on Monday, I realized the key to my eating right is exercising EVERY DAY. Days that I exercise I am soooo much more aware of what I'm putting in my mouth and have more discipline as I don't want my physical efforts to go in vain. So far it's working out. And for my birthday Carson gave me extra motivation when we were in a large bathroom stall together at Paradise Bakery (sweet Dixie took me to lunch where I had a delicious salad and splurged on a cup of creamy potato soup!). So here I am with my two boys in the large bathroom stall, there' s a lady in the stall next to me and a woman waiting for her turn, so...full bathroom. The boys "go" and now I'm up. As I place my pink derrierre on the royal throne, Carson booms in his echoing voice, "Mom, I see your big, fat butt!" I kind of chuckle in agreeance, but he continues with wide eyes, "No really, that is a BIG. FAT. BUTT!" Ooooookay, Carse, I get it. But he is not to be silenced as he runs over to Wyatt pointing at me, "Wyatt, go look at Mom's big fat butt!" At this point it's safe to say I am thoroughly mortified and am now physically covering his mouth with my hand. Thanks, Carson--you motivated me to order healthier foods for lunch today. Way to offer your support, buddy.
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Back to my birthday present to myself: I'm trying to save up my "birthday splurginess" for this weekend when Brett is whisking me away on a surprise celebration, so I hit the gym after dinner and (here it comes...) I pushed myself harder and shaved two minutes off my 2-mile jog! I've been frustrated because I've been doing intervals for 2 miles for my cardio workouts and I haven't liked my time on it. So tonight I ran as long and as hard as I could and in the end I was 2 minutes faster than I've ever been!
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Happy Birthday to me, AND to my Big, Fat Butt! :)
Hope Sig1

Monday, May 3, 2010

(in a weak voice...) "must be strong...must not give in...must have choc...olate...

I'm failing already!
Today I ate a handful of chocolate chips.
Why is it when I decide I won't eat anything like that suddenly it's all I can think about? I swear before I chose to deprive myself of it, I hadn't given it a second thought--now all I think about is how much I want a piece of bread or a pan of brownies or a bag of pepperoni.
I feel so hungry, like visiting an all-you-can-eat buffet!

WILLLLLLLL POWWWWWWEEEERRRRRRR!!!!

Good thing I'm doing a weightlifting class tonight with Heather...
How much weight do you think you have to lift to burn off 1/2 c. of chocolate chips?

Hope Sig1

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Wyatt's a Killer Whale! (Or at least he's on their soccer team!)






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May is for Me.

OK, this is it. May is "The Month". This is the month I am testing my body to see if it just needs "more" from me or if something is wrong here...

Since January I have been pretty dang faithful exercising an hour on an average of 3 days a week for (which is 3 more than I was prior to that) and eating fairly well, with the occasional splurge. By eating well, I mean my typical diet was:
Breakfast, one of the following:
- egg white omelette with spinach and fat-free feta cheese
- oatmeal
- whole grain, low-fat waffles with fruit
- yogurt
- low-fat cold cereal
- scrambled egg with low-fat turkey sausage
Lunch, one of the following:
- baked potato with fat-free sour cream
- sweet potato (no sugar or butter)
- cooked spinach
- salad (spring mix, apple or orange, fat-free dressing, about 1/8 c. walnuts)
Dinner
I cook the typical meals but I use low-fat or fat-free ingredients as much as possible and I typically avoid the "naughty-naughty" foods.

I've even been good when we eat out to choose some healthier options, such as salads or steamed vegetables over french fries; marinara sauce instead of creamy alfredo, etc.

Could I work myself harder? Yes. Could I deprive myself of more foods? Sure. And yet I feel I'm overall eating healthier than I have in a very long time and definitely exercising more than I EVER have. And yet I am not only "not losing", I am actually GAINING! And don't bother telling me it's "muscle"...it's not. I'm on the verge of being too fat for my FAT PANTS (ugh, it's so depressing saying that). I admit I have not had this huge desire to lose all this weight, but simply wanted to live a healthier lifestyle and be happy where that put me. However, packing on more weight was NOT IN THE PLAN. And we all know how much I like to make a plan. This is so aggravating. I'm seriously starting to wonder if something is up with my body.

So May is IT. For the next 31 days, I'm depriving myself of more things (nothing extreme, just stuff I enjoy that I feel could be hampering my succes like my morning glass of orange juice, eating bread, rice, and pasta, etc.) and stepping up the exercising. I have a goal to exercise AT LEAST 4 days a week, but shooting for 6. I want to push myself harder. In my opinion, I should see results by the end of the month. If I don't, then I really think I need to consider seeing a medical professional, because seriously, I don't understand the weight-gain. I can see maybe only maintaining my weight because yes, I could work harder, but the mere fact that I'm working at it at all tells me my weight should in the very least be steady if not going lower.

So wish me luck--we shall see!

Here's my starting weight and measurements:
WEIGHT: 171.4
BICEPS (or lack thereof): 13"
WAIST/STOMACH: 39.50"
BUTT (I like to affectionally call it my 'THUTT' as there's no real definition to where my thighs end and my butt begins): 44.75"
THIGHS: 27.75"

P.S. Could I have picked a worse month than my birth month? I guess November and December are decidedly worse months to resist goodies, but I have to disclose that on my birthday I will be allowing myself a little treat. I am turning 30, you know...that in itself deserves a sweet acknowledgment.

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Friday, April 30, 2010

sharpening his skills...


Wyatt wanted to practice his photography skills so he snapped quick picture of us at a school activity one evening in March.
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

a pet peeve.


I really hate it when someone uses the dishtowel and then doesn't replace it by hanging it back on the oven handle.

Do I also make this mistake sometimes?
Yes.
But does it annoy me as much as when other people do it and then I can't find the towel when I need it?
Heck no.

I hate not having the dish towel where it needs to be when I (*I!*) need it in a hurry!

Alright-y...I feel better now.
Thanks.

Hope Sig1

a melt-in-your-mouth experience...do you FONDUE?

In March we helped celebrate my brother Mike's birthday with an awesome evening at the Melting Pot (okay, he's my brother-in-law, but really those are just words...he's as much a brother as flesh and blood). We'd never eaten there before--it's a definite splurge so we don't anticipate going back soon, but when we do go back, it will be something we look forward to. It was such a unique dining experience. I'd go without the meat course next time and settle for just the cheese and dessert, but we were glad we tried everything the first time so we can know what we'll like best in the future! My favorite part of dessert was the cheesecake in the rich turtle chocolate fondue...I'm salivating just thinking about it!


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Monday, April 26, 2010

a tender mercy in six-minutes (and five shopping carts), and no less...

I have about 15 grocery bags sitting on my kitchen counter and floor competing for my attention but this post simply could not wait. I had to document, to share, my sweet little experience at the store just now.
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I was all done--my cart was overflowing, both with children and food and other products from Target's well-stocked shelves. I had one last item to grab, a rotisserie chicken from the deli. I won't go as far as to say I was angry or that it ruined my day, but I cannot deny I was annoyed that after 75 minutes of shopping with two little boys, I was going to have to wait another SIX MINUTES for the deli's next batch of chicken to be done cooking. SIX MINUTES, which any young mother knows can seem like an eternity! All the items from my list had been found and collected, so there was nothing to do but wait. How bad did I really want this chicken? Hmmm...mentally I weighed my options: wait six minutes for tonight's dinner or save myself six minutes NOW and pay for it by cooking 20 minutes tonight. Mental calculation DONE: waiting it was. Thankfully my boys continued being very well-behaved and I was surprised how quickly the six minutes passed. Yes, I was tired of being there and sooo ready for it to be over, but any annoyance I'd had was now gone as I made my way to the check-out stand.
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Two registers were open: 5 and 6. Pulling into 5 I noticed there was only one customer in front of me, a man who looked to be in his mid-to-late 50's. Now everyone knows having just one customer in front of you is definitely not that bad. However, this man had four (YES, FOUR!) very full carts trailing behind him. Puzzled and assuming not all those carts could belong to him, I asked the Target employee if someone else had left one or two of the carts there while they ran to get something they forgot. The man answered for her saying, "No these are all mine and my wife is coming with a fifth." He gave his most apologetic smile as he contined, "I'm afraid we're going to be a while." Grateful for the warning, but still astonished (and curious!) at the humongous purchase he was making, I headed into Checkout 6, where a woman twice my age and yet three times as skinny in her yoga pants bought a small collection of items - Protein Bars, Protein Shakes, and bottled water. (Yeah...give me my size 16 pajama pants and my Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, I say...)
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Anyway, by the time it was my turn to unload the cart, the wife of Mr. Checkout 5 had come with the fifth cart and they were about half-way through scanning it all. I could hear a Target supervisor calling for employees to assist this couple with their items to the car. I found that I could not take my eyes off them! They were buying everything under the sun, it seemed: canned food, blankets, first-aid items, pantry food, batteries, tupperware, bedsheets, you name it. And then I heard it. The question every person within earshot was dying to have answered. The supervisor asked about this unusual amount of merchandise. Their answer? The wife timidly replied they were shipping everything to Africa, where they were soon to become the mission presidents in the Congo area. She explained it is a brand new mission and they are the ones to get it started. Of course her answer was interesting enough, but the look on her face spoke volumes. In one look she translated several emotions, such as nervousness, humility, and maybe even a little bit of insecurity. But above it all, she was brilliant with the look of FAITH. I mean, you'd have to have faith to do leave everything (everyone) behind and do something like that! I stood there paying for my (one) cart of groceries, in awe of these two servants. Here they are, spending $1692 (yes, I absolutely could not resist peeking at the total on the register screen as I walked by) and basically turning their lives upside down to travel across the world to a vulnerable area to begin the Lord's work. I wondered what their lives had been like since they'd gotten the call--tying up loose ends...either selling their home or finding someone to maintain it, squeezing in as much time with their children and grandchildren as possible, doing research on the internet and making list after list of the necessary preparations.
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My eyes grew hot with tears and it took all I had not to completely succumb to the emotions in the burning of my chest. How grateful I was that I had been there to witness this scene. And had I been to the register 6 minutes earlier? I'm confident there is a high possibility I would have missed it. The Lord knew I needed that today. He knew I needed to see the sweet sacrifices others make to not only live the gospel but to share it with others. I couldn't get home fast enough to journal that moment--I was afraid somehow those feelings would leave me and I'd forget all about it. But as I write, it's apparent that I will keep this tender mercy with me for quite some time. Probably even beyond dinner tonight at 6:00 when we all sit down for our Rotisserie Chicken. And I'm also betting that at 6:00 p.m., somewhere in Davis County, is a middle-aged couple who will still be unloading their Target bags of groceries.
Hope Sig1

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Friday, April 23, 2010

making it all better with some brotherly love...

The other week Halle wrecked while riding her bike and skinned the ol' elbow up good. I was touched to see Carson hop off his tricycle, run over to her and give his crying sister a hug.


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"The democracy will cease to exist when you TAKE AWAY from those who are willing to work AND GIVE to those who would not."



Thomas Jefferson