Thursday, September 24, 2009

or does God want to surprise them?

This summer I bought a butterfly kit. It came with a "netted cage" and a certificate to mail in exchange for our butterfly "larvae" (that word alone gives me the heebie-jeebies...). I knew it was going to be tricky, this butterfly farm of ours, because you had to basically make yourself available for about 6 weeks straight. Our summer months were packed with big vacations, little vacations, girls camp, youth conference, you name it! But we did the best we could and loved our little butterfly experience. The larvae came, all nice and disgusting, in the jar you see above. The jar was already prepared with their food...we just had to check on them each day. The children would rush downstairs every morning to check on our worm-like friends. Over time, they grew and became charming caterpillars, slowly crawling around, getting fatter and fatter.
It almost seemed difficult for them to get around, first scooting one part of their body a millimeter of an inch, then the next part, then the next part.
But they kept moving and working, every day.

They were slow in their progress, but they were rarely still.

Then one day a couple had placed themselves underneath the lid, hanging down. We knew it wouldn't be long before they'd be making their cocoons, but we had (another) "vacation" and had to leave. By the time we got back, this is what we found (sorry the flash sort of ruined the picture):
two remaining, unopened chrysalis' and four very cramped butterflies!
Of course I panicked thinking,
"All summer we've waited and now I've killed them!"


We hurried outside and opened the container. At first, I thought the escaped butterflies had been in cramped quarters for so long that they wouldn't be able to fly. But after putting them on my finger (yes, I wore gloves...the stuff in that jar was gooey and STUNK!) and sort of encouraging them, they soon hopped onto a flower and drank (and drank and drank). That was especially cool... watching them drink like that. You could literally see their strength coming back to them and after about five minutes, they were like orange-winged Lazaruses! Back from the dead and off to do whatever butterflies do! We left the unopened cocoons, and within two days, all that was left was an empty shell of what they had once been.
Anyway, the next day the kids went to swimming lessons. While I waited for them in the car, I read my new book, "For Such a Time as This: Talks from the 2007 BYU Women's Conference". It just so happens that day I was reading an Ardeth Kapp talk in which she referred to an old Family Circle cartoon (remember that comic strip???). In it, one of the Family Circle children asked his mother,
"Do caterpillars know they are going to become butterflies,
or does God want to surprise them?"
I couldn't help but think about our little caterpillars, eating and working for weeks to prepare themselves for something better. They moved so slowly, and yet, the point is they kept on moving! I pondered the question myself: did they have an innate knowledge that something better, something much more grand and beautiful and free, was around the corner, or did they just work because that was what they knew they should be doing, the outcome a mystery to them? Why is it we always want the answers now? Why are we so impatient and untrusting? Why can't we just keep progressing forward, holding onto the hope, onto the promise, that the rewards will eventually be ours, and that they will be so worth it...that they will make us soar? We know we have divine potential. We know we have the promise to be more than we alone can make ourselves become--the Lord has told us that much. So why don't we cling to that promise and work harder to obtain it? We've got to keep moving, millimeter by millimeter, and even though our progress is slow, at least we're not standing still. We're moving in the right direction.

Just as I was getting ready to post this blog, I stumbled across another blog talking about the very same thing! I wanted to share her thoughts as well--(you can click on the words to see the blog. It's valeriepondering.blogspot.com):


How blessed we are to know our eternal potential and to know that we will become butterflies someday. Just as the butterfly has to be patient inside the chrysalis, enduring the slow, possibly painful changes, we can’t desire to have our wings with no trials and no perseverance. Maybe if the next time I’m tested by my circumstances, I can think that the pain is just my wings growing a bit more and I can have the patience to endure it.

Even though we have been blessed with the knowledge of the Lord’s plan, I don’t think we can really fathom the full magnitude of our potential partly because we need to learn it precept upon precept (and I have lots of precepts to go!), but also because God wants to surprise us.


Hope Sig1

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

do U go to PAGO?

A couple weeks ago Jo and I met up for lunch at a new restaurant in her neighborhood called Pago. It was very interesting, a bit schwanky, and gourmETTE, if you know what I mean. The service was horrendously slow, but the food was worth it, not to mention the company! It was wonderful to have some time to ourselves to get caught up and visit. She wet my appetite when she told me all her plans for her upcoming trip to Ireland (from which she has recently returned and has the most incredible photos!). Totally kicking myself for not snagging up the same fabulous deal that she got! Sometimes we've just got to be more spontaneous!!!

Anyway, thanks for the lunch, Jo! Let's go again...I loved it!

P.S. How's your finger? (The Pago chair proved to be malicious as it gave her a nasty, bloody cut!)

Hope Sig1

Monday, September 21, 2009

B-2-S FHE & First Days : 2009 Edition

On our last "summer vacation" weekend, we held a special FHE called "Back-2-School". The kids had seen me making preparations here and there for about a week, so they'd been anticipating all the fun surprises. I'm happy to say it was a huge hit and loads of fun!

I found some cute (cheap!) decorations at the Dollar Store (streamers, cut outs for the wall) and we used our Little People Bus as our centerpiece.
After prayer, we started our lesson by singing "The Wheels on the Bus". (This could very well have been the highlight of Carson's evening!) Then we had a lesson talking about the things we can do to be good students and also tips on how to make new friends. We broke into two groups, each group listing their ideas. After reviewing everyone's suggestions, we picked our favorite ones and made an official list. Those lists were then posted on our FHE board upstairs (a magnet board specifically used to display something that brings to mind our most recent FHE lessons--hopefully it helps carry the lesson on throughout the week as a reminder).
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Then we had dinner, Cafeteria-style, of course! We all had trays and walked through the "line" along the counter island. The menu was delish and old-school, as you can see in the picture below!~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Following dinner, two teams went on a treasure hunt! Halle and Wyatt had written clues, and had to use some serious teamwork to figure some of them out. Daddy and Carson had clues with pictures (I had gone around the house, photographing different locations for clues). It worked very well and Carson felt special that he got to participate and pretty much be able to do it by his big-boy-self. Here's team "Hyatt" finding their treasure: a huge gift bag full of school supplies for all three kids, plus some items they could take to their teachers (kleenex, hand sanitizer, crayons, pencils, etc.). There was also a storybook for each child about going back to school. It was fun to sit and read through them. My favorite was the story which told about a girl who is nervous and scared about the first day of school. You never see her...just parts of her, like her feet as she puts on her shoes, etc. At the end you realize it's not a girl at all--it's the teacher who has butterflies about her first day back to teaching school! Gave some nice insight that maybe the teachers get a little nervous, too!
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Carson found his treasure hiding behind the blanket rack. It was a special dessert: School Bus Twinkies! Next time I will use the miniature oreos, as the regular ones made our buses "monster trucks", but it didn't matter...they still tasted very yummy! (And can you get any more sinful than TWINKIES and OREOS???
Hello, Calories...Hello, Heaven!)
We ended our FHE with a common tradition: Father's Blessings.
I'm so grateful for the priesthood Brett holds and the worthiness he has to use it. It is an incredible gift in our lives, being able to start a new year knowing the Lord has been asked to help you specifically in that area. We have great kids--they are bright, energetic, and caring. But it's wonderful to know the Lord is on their side, by their side, in their day-to-day activities.
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Breakfast First Day of School:
Waffles & Strawberries with a tall glass of OJ

Halle loves going to her beautiful new school, and loves even more the fact that she can walk there with her friends! It was hard for her mama to let her go on her own, but she's done fabulously and has also proved that so far she can be trusted to go straight there and back (even in a timely manner!). I have such a cool daughter!
Halle's teacher, "Mrs. H"
~~~~~~~~~~Wyatt is a "senior" in preschool this year.
Next year he will graduate and move onto greener
pastures in kindergarten! For now, however,
he's enjoying being back with Miss Amy and making
new friends the hopefully will be right there with him
next year as he changes to the 'big school'.

Hope Sig1

a visit from "Verruca Plantaris" (a story of removal)

BEFORE:
Happy, Naive Halle...just excited to visit
the doctor and get a sucker.
Thinks it's cool she's getting so much attention.
Likes to show off the warties.
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The biggest "verruca": Mr. Planter himself.
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AFTER:
A much wiser, unhappier Halle,
having lived through the wart-freeze.
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Riding in a wheelchair makes everything better.
Also, having your little brother push the "panic" button
in the elevator proves to be quite entertaining as well.
(Heard by everyone within earshot of the elevator and lobby,
a computerized voice repeatedly stating:
"Attention! Emergency in Elevator 1, IHC Building South!")
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As a side-note, I just have to add a special bit to this story...
While the dr. was freezing the warts,
Halle was clinging to me as I held her.
I started whisper-singing in her ear her favorite primary song,
A Child's Prayer.
She was still crying, but I was amazed at
how much calmer she became.
She stopped yelling and squirming and began
to take deep breaths through her silent tears.
"The song of the righteous is a prayer unto me..."
I'm grateful He heard a mother's prayer for her child.

Hope Sig1

Thursday, September 17, 2009

am I letting it take over?

Last night someone said something that really made me think. It made me realize that it's very possible I spend more time on my calling than is healthy. She and I had an "email conversation "about it and this is what I told her:

Lately I feel like my calling can be compared to some type of aggressive flower, like Tall Phlox… It’s beautiful and is a wonderful addition to your garden. It enhances your garden (your life) and brings you great joy. However, if you’re not careful, it can become excessive and invasively spread, taking over all the other beautiful plants in your garden. Does that make sense? I love my calling. I love, love, LOVE the women I serve with. I love the girls. I appreciate how my own testimony has re-emerged stronger and better. However, I am finding it extremely difficult to find the fine line between serving with all I can and yet not letting it overrun my life. It’s a balance I just cannot seem to master. There is a power struggle: trying to have “a life”, and yet trying to do all I can to feel as though I’m successfully contributing in my calling. I’m a bit at a loss…when I think about what I have to do, and think about cutting back on it, all my mind can focus on is all the possible consequences of not doing it or getting it done.

How do others serve so phenomenally in their challenging church callings and yet maintain a healthy balance? What's the secret???
Hope Sig1

Sunday, September 13, 2009

love those lazy mornings.

The kids love to look at their baby pictures in the scrapbooks.
(Yeah...the ones I'm so behind on.)

Hope Sig1

Friday, September 11, 2009

finding hope.



I enjoy these videos the Church puts on YouTube. They average one a week and watching them grants me an opportunity to feel and ponder spiritual things. This video reminded me of something else: Recently, Brett and I watched a touching movie called Charlotte Gray*. In it, a woman is asked which is more important: love or hope? She replied hope. I think her answer is very true in many respects...when one feels their world is shaken, when the light seems to be growing dim, it is the glimmer of hope, even if faint, that keeps a person moving forward and holds them back from giving up. Hope and faith are what enable us to endure.

* By the way, I'd highly recommend this movie. It's a bit slow to start, but once it gets going it's extremely moving.

Hope Sig1

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

nothin' to get hung up over.

Whenever I do laundry, Carson loves to steal a few hangers and yes, strip down to his diaper and hook them onto it.

Don't ask. I wouldn't have an answer for you if you did.

Hope Sig1
"The democracy will cease to exist when you TAKE AWAY from those who are willing to work AND GIVE to those who would not."



Thomas Jefferson